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Saturday, December 29, 2007
1:08 AM

Banyan

two years ago. yet it felt, strangely afar.

i now hold parties in respectful awe, skulking in the shadows, thoughts kept congenitally inert. i speak amidst familiarity, shunning fresh flesh. a rule of thumb in personal stride, if i would need to spark a conversation with hi i'm waikit, it ain't one to dabble in.
conversations these days are, brutally blunt and painfully bland.

but i know, it ain't lost. jocular talk and jocose retorts still hang in the air, but they fail to slip the tongue. there seemed, strangely no need.

i try to fanthom, why. i love the thick of action, the centre of parties, the hip of life. perhaps it is now, loved.

a life of meaning or a life of happiness, quite aptly placed by mr linderman. i know not, for i seek puerile happiness, yet dwelt upon the past and obsessed with the future.

i am quite a confused boy.

i wish you the life you seek, and may your steadfast belief in Christ never waver. 28 dec 2 hours to midnight, you had subtly taught me that perhaps, the path you tread is truly a life of happiness and meaning.
happy birthday enthubunny.

the voices in my head-

Thursday, December 27, 2007
2:42 PM

Through

is it true?
no.
i hadn't even told what is.
it doesn't matter. nothing is.

someone asked, if i were ever unsure of myself and of what i want.
and i ponder. how may one be sure of truth? how may one be sure of nothingness?

i replied in pomposity, on sexuality. but i look myself through, and find nothing true.

the voices in my head-

Friday, December 14, 2007
9:14 PM

Reservice

it is particularly satisfying, when i stroll past warrant officers and they know not whether to halt me.

without the nation nor formation nor unit tag, quite evident a soldier from a couple years back. yet a second lieutenant, quite impossible - for all officers leave the army as a full fledged lieutenant. and the last laugh to come, a second lieutenant heading a company of 50 NSman.

one of more compelling theories circulating within camp speaks of myself as a regular, climbed to the status of a captain of some sorts, and de-ranked due to some folly.
characteristic, and highly amusing.

the army is really, quite the place for a hearty laugh.

the voices in my head-

Saturday, December 08, 2007
10:11 PM

Hallows

festive mood in the air.
ain't she pretty.

i meant her.

and a preview of what would seemingly be the ghost of (you and) me.

KL, the end of a beginning yet a new chapter. so much in likeness.
the stone. the chamber. the tournament. till the hallows. i loved each in its own tale. but put them in chronology, and they weave a beautiful tale. my life, is. a beautiful tale.
and i pray my love be the deathly hallows. till death, to the end.

the voices in my head-

Tuesday, December 04, 2007
11:58 AM

Sun Salt Sand Sea

went out. hadn't felt quite carefree since the end of army. the tumid uni days had been quite suffocating, though much of it was self sought. that men for the sake of getting a living forget to live, perhaps what is said often holds true indeed.

but it is a relief, the end of the semester. and this is the reason why this semester had passed extraordinarily quickly, with preeminent foreheads and curious ears.

and in any case, it is worth an outing to have witnessed the idiosyncratic whining of mickey lock twenty times a minute. even with miss luohan tai hurling mucus coagulated tissue all over.

the four of us.

the voices in my head-